Looking Back

Luke 9:62 – “Anyone who puts his hand to the plow ant hen looks back is not fit for the kingdom of God.”
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I spend a lot of time looking back. Jesus was serious about this too. All the guy wanted to do was go and say goodbye to his mom. Maybe this is another example of literal hyperbole. He actually told the guy to do this but I see in the word over and over again that God does not want us to leave everything behind, including our family. But the looking back thing remains the same. I spend too much time looking back, even fanaticizing about a life free from the call God has on my life. The money that could be made, the house that could be bought, the sports that could be watched, the porn I could watch, all those things, as small as they seem add up to something that is pretty tempting but I know at the same time it is completely empty. I know in both my heart and my mind that life is better like this and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.
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Lord, keep me from looking back. Continue to keep me from the temptations that I face and help me to constantly remember that life is better by your rules and with your call on it. I want to you know that I would not trade it for anything. You are so good to me, and I would choose to be your slave over being a free man.